Why unfortunate?

Why unfortunate... well that's because that is how my life has been as of late. Do you believe in the secret? Honestly, I do. I have seen it work, it has even worked for me. But why can't I seem to make it work for me all the time? I guess I find it hard to concentrate all my energies into something positive... I can't figure out why... I even had this really awesome, nice and sweet guy ask me out today... but I told him I was not looking for anything or wanting anything right now... after I said that I felt like I had made a big mistake, like I was throwing away something that may be positive in my life... something good... something I need. I dunno, Confused................. What a great way to start out a blog huh? Well, hopefully they won't all be like this, but I can't make any promises... until next time